our hearts are broken.

the vet came to our house on tuesday evening, about 5:45, and put mollie to sleep. our sadness is all-encompassing. she was the best dog ever. here she is, after kevin had first gotten her from his next-door neighbor.  i didn’t even know her...

mollie, boat, show

so…mollie wasn’t feeling good yesterday morning.  she was shaking, which seemed very bad.  i called the U of I, and one of the oncology vets who was on-call called me right back.  she suggested i see how mollie was doing in a couple of hours, and that we...

two days in a row!

yeah, i know, unprecedented for a really long time, me writing on  here two days in a row. kevin’s sailboat excitement continues. he said he woke up extra early this morning cause he was so excited about the boat.  he couldn’t start working on it cause it...

boat!

we hurried over to the lake christian camp place to buy the boat.  i told mom that she MUST NOT USE THE F WORD around the nice christian fella selling us the boat, and if she did, we’d make her pay the extra cost he’d inevitably charge us! here’s one...

well..a sailboat.

we are about to be the proud owners of a sailboat. yep. because one boat just isn’t enough. kevin has been talking about a sailboat all summer, and today he had lunch with his friend wayne, and on the way there he saw a sailboat for sale, and he looked at it and...

wow.

i think i’ve mentioned that my friend erica is in tanzania for a month.  she is staying with some nuns in a convent there, and i was happy and relieved to hear that she had arrived there safely. she’s been there over a week now, and i’d gotten a...

another opening and another show…

people have asked me today, “are you excited?”  “are you nervous?” well…i guess maybe a little of both, but it’s still such a long long time from now that i’ll actually be walking out on stage.  about five hours, actually....

tuesday!

although i keep thinking it’s wednesday, but it’s not wednesday, because on wednesday we take mollie to the U of I again, and we’re dreading it quite a bit. luckily, mollie is oblivious and seems to feel good and has even been eating some of the...

wow!

because erica is going to TANZANIA on friday, she came to see part of the gypsy rehearsal tonight.  and because she was there, i stayed til the end instead of ducking out after my one number.  and it was SO GOOD!  so you’d better hurry up and get your tickets...

it seemed like a good idea at the time…

i woke up about 2:15 or so, and i was just lying there, itching my thousands of new mosquito bites on my legs, and i finally decided to get up. now i feel this probably wasn’t the best idea in the world.  but on the other hand, i’d just by lying there...

monday

well…last wednesday afternoon it was hot outside and mom and i did some errands and a couple of times the fan on the air conditioning in the van didn’t seem quite right to me, and it didn’t seem to get cool enough quickly enough, but we decided it...

the hat!

here’s the fabulous hat i get to wear in gypsy: i am very, very excited about it!  plus the costume.  plus i get to wear a big wig and my big heels so i’m pretty sure i’ll be over six feet tall! it’s nice to have something happy and fun to...

tuesday, i’m pretty sure…

yes, it’s definitely tuesday.  yoga this morning. so, the super duper class at the fit club isn’t going so great.  it’s called “dynamic training,” and so far i’ve been two times.  the first time was friday, and there were four of...

tuesday!

so, my aunt sandy just wrote to me, asking, in very friendly way, to hurry up and write already. it is hot again today, but starting tomorrow it’s gonna be lovely and fabulous outside, so you can just forget about me sitting inside writing anything.  i could, of...

consistently cute kitties

yesterday, out of the corner of my eye, i saw lester dragging something into the living room.  “uh oh,” i thought, “what does he have this time?  baby bird?  adult bird?  ground squirrel?  full-sized squirrel?’ no, none of the above…it...

randy’s birthday dinner!

ok,, posting these photos…only 9 days late! first, our darling mollie, who just wanted all of our food for a change.  we had delicious grilled by kevin steaks, and mollie got plenty. kevin and me, trying to not let all the candles blow out before they got to...

july, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY RANDY!!!!!!!!!!!!

we had a HUGE CELEBRATION for his birthday on monday night. many photos, soon, i swear. and yes, it’s already JULY, and WHERE HAVE I BEEN???  busy, so much busier than i’d like to be. today would be a relaxing day, except i went to weightlifting class...

so, i’m thinking of looking up

the .com for “graceeverythingcontinuesbeaquicksandfilledpoolofbadnessandican’ttakemuchmoreofit.com because, yeah. the last time kevin took mollie to the U of I in champaign for her chemo, i didn’t go because i was in Washington D.C.  that was three...

thursday evening,

and it’s a lovely one.  i talked to christine last night; she lives in denver and she said she was in meetings yesterday and when she left work, giant fans in the lobby of her office building were blowing the smoke out the door.  she didn’t know why there...

saturday morning,

and i somehow managed to mostly sleep through the night last night, so yay for that. we had this cruddy dishwashing soap dispenser on our kitchen sink.  i loved it when we bought it, it’s a clear bottle with a metal top, and the metal part got all rusty and...

thursday morning

well…things remain ok.  fair to middling.  not so bad. kevin and i are out on the screened porch, a boat just zinged by on the glistening lake.  i hope to launch the boat next week.  or at least get it cleaned up so we can take it to the guy to tune up the motor...

reeeeeally early wednesday morning…

damnitall damnit.  it’s 3:41 a.m. and i just heard a bird chirp outside even though they should be fast asleep. as should i. definitely, fast, soundly, completely asleep.  sitting here in front of a computer screen is, of course, a horrible way to help me get...

tuesday

things are fairly ok at this little moment in time.  yesterday i power-washed the deck and now it looks dazzling, i’m happy to say.  it’s one of those things i do in may, at the latest.  because of the cold and the constant rain, and, oh yeah, spending...

it’s all about dad…

i was up for a total of three hours last night, but at least i completed that banner. today, although feeling like a zombie, i managed to bake 20 dozen cookies for dad’s celebration. plus i made a few dozen splenda oatmeal cookies for kevin, who has been so...

4:14 a.m.

whew. up since around two in the morning. finally decided to get up and work on my new banner.  i started it, well, i guess it would be yesterday morning, cause now we’re having sunday, all day. we’re having a Celebration of Life for dad on saturday, june...

saturday

so, thursday, we made peace with the fact that we didn’t want dad to be in any more pain, so they took the breathing thing off him, turned off the antibiotics and stuff, and we figured he’d be gone soon.  thursday evening they moved him to a very nice...

what a difference five days makes…

once dad was extubated, he was able to croak out his misery and deep hatred of being in the hospital.  he was improving, though, and they even moved him to intermediate care. but yesterday morning, was it just yesterday? at 7:20 a.m. i got my 4th call in the past two...

extubation!

i even looked it up in order to spell it correctly. they took out the tube before 11 this morning.  i was in the room to see it happen, but it was so quick, i missed it. dad is much happier now, as are we all. this is one mother’s day we won’t forget. ok...

and suddenly, saturday…

i’m here in the hospital again with dad. writing “bring it on” continues to curse me  – late wednesday, i came down with a bad cold.  seriously?  good grief.  i’ve been taking massive amount of healing things, and don’t feel so bad...