Sep 15, 2005 | Uncategorized
ok, first let me say this – i did two one-woman shows last year. all by myself, up on a stage, and i wasn’t really very nervous at all. talked and talked, for at least an hour and a half. no problem. and last february i was in a play where i had to do a bunch of...
Sep 15, 2005 | Uncategorized
…the basement of some campus building, that is, where the computer guys are allegedly fixing my computer. all i want is to be able to go online at panera, which i used to do with no problem. but since many things on my computer have been changed, something has...
Sep 15, 2005 | Uncategorized
WIDE AWAKE. COMPLETELY WIDE AWAKE. i’ve been like this for TWO WHOLE HOURS NOW. completely unacceptable. i started out thinking about my Main Issue, and then i proceeded to worry/obsess about other things. branching out, going new directions in the middle of the night...
Sep 12, 2005 | Uncategorized
i can lie in bed and type, can’t i? i’m pretending to feel better. if you saw me in “you can’t take it with you,” where i pretended to be a very bad ballet dancer, you’ll know that i can do an excellent job of pretending. very excellent. not that i’m in...
Sep 9, 2005 | Uncategorized
here’s one remarkable thing i found out today: i checked out some books at the library at UIS, and they’re not due till JANUARY. isn’t that crazy? AND i get to renew them if i want, so i could have them for a year. amazing. that is the only good thing today. i’m not...
Sep 6, 2005 | Uncategorized
i didn’t mention that we played frisbee while camping, and this morning, for some reason, i suddenly thought of it. when we played frisbee, it was an ideal night for it – twilight, no breeze, not too hot outside, and we played on a huge, empty grassy field, with...
Sep 3, 2005 | Uncategorized
yeah, this tells you just how fascinating, exciting and action-packed my life is. sitting here all alone writing on a saturday night. at least i like writing. i’m at amy and jim’s right now, where the dogs are being very quiet, which probably means that they’re...
Sep 2, 2005 | Uncategorized
i just watched 20 minutes of news on MSNBC. WHY AREN’T THE PEOPLE BEING HELPED? THIS IS AMERICA. WE HELP PEOPLE. a man was on a roof with his two dogs, sobbing, saying he’d been apologizing the dogs for not leavin the city. he’d been swimming with them for eight...
Sep 1, 2005 | Uncategorized
was that last posting just yesterday? how can that be? it feels like many years have passed since yesterday afternoon, sitting outside at panera, so young and carefree and filled with song… just kidding. except for the large amount of time passing. tonight in...
Aug 31, 2005 | Uncategorized
so, i know most people hate AOL, but i love them. i love all of the people who work there, this one woman in particular. see, i save all my e-mails. well, i don’t save all the junk mail, but i save all of my correspondence. years and years of it – since 1995, to...
Aug 29, 2005 | Uncategorized
i guess that’s my primary emotion at this time. i have more than a dozen mosquito bites ON EACH LEG, and that’s just FROM THE KNEE DOWN. that about sums up camping. of course it doesn’t really, but i have no energy/time right now to write much more. i’m typing this on...
Aug 26, 2005 | Uncategorized
and so far things are going well. and it’s friday! this morning i got an e-mail to attend dinners on thursday nights, but i said I CAN’T, I HAVE CLASS ON THURSDAY NIGHT. but i don’t feel bad about not getting to expand my social circle, becaause i’m excited about...
Aug 25, 2005 | Uncategorized
no tears today. pretty much. the week has been fairly crazy. my computer is very very bad again, and now it’s being fixed. it’s very strange to go home and have no computer. how am i supposed to write in the middle of the night? last night i wrote in my journal, but...
Aug 22, 2005 | Uncategorized
what happened to the weekend? suddenly it’s monday night and i could have sworn i wrote here during the weekend… here’s another photo from last year’s fair. there are a few good photos of chickens, and this is the first. “chicken photo #1,” let’s...
Aug 19, 2005 | Uncategorized
the only reason i’m writing this is because i’m waiting for my laundry to finish drying. i was going to put up another photo of the fair from last year, but i don’t have one that’s been shrunken down right now. tomorrow. perhaps. it’s funny, the photo i put up, how...
Aug 19, 2005 | Uncategorized
i know it’s an hour when many many people are aleady awake, but i woke up at 5 and haven’t been back to sleep and i need a little more because i have a very busy day at the fair again today. things related to school are becoming more complicated. i just found out...
Aug 17, 2005 | Uncategorized
a fellow i know works for the state. actually, i know plenty of state workers. this particular fellow works in a building where they aren’t allowed to touch the thermostat. they’re locked. today the air conditioning was shut off in his area, for some unknown reason....
Aug 17, 2005 | Uncategorized
as i said, i was going to accept any marriage proposals at the fair, and i did, and the drive down to the farm was very pleasant, and the marriage ceremony very festive, and i’m going to make my own belated wedding cake later on. happily ever after! of COURSE i didn’t...
Aug 16, 2005 | Uncategorized
i’m about to head to the fair. in that last entry, i meant to say that when i’m giving massages TODAY, i’m going to accept proposals. i just got an e-mail asking if i’d accept e-mail proposals. and i said NO WAY, of course…i’m not going to accept a proposal from...
Aug 16, 2005 | Uncategorized
when i am giving massages at the fair, if a man asks me to go home with him, or marry him, i’m going to say yes. so perhaps you won’t hear from me for a while because i’ll be riding in someone’s extra-wide pickup truck, down to some farm in the middle of nowhere, with...
Aug 14, 2005 | Uncategorized
it snuck up on me, the S.N.Surliness. and now i’m stuck with it. i keep driving past a billboard that says MOVE LIFE FORWARD. it’s an ad for lincoln land community college, and i keep noticing it, but suddenly, the last time i drove by, the words kind of jumped right...
Aug 13, 2005 | Uncategorized
WHY do i have to be up right now? i was lying here saying “you’re just resting now, you’re just resting now,” but it was doing no good. i was thinking of many, many things, but suddenly all i could think about was logging on here and fixing that photo i...
Aug 12, 2005 | Uncategorized
i don’t really hate people. but today at about 4:25 p.m., i was very sick of them as a species. there are many different things i need to cover here, so i need to focus in so i can read something. what, i haven’t decided – something i got from the library. the...
Aug 11, 2005 | Uncategorized
that’s the correct wording on the t-shirt. perfect to describe me, i have to admit. it does give me a bit of solace, thinking that maybe i’m NOT lost, even though i wander continuously. thursday night already! the week has crawled but at the same time has raced by....
Aug 11, 2005 | Uncategorized
she made it back from europe alive! very good news. i visited her this morning, and she gave me reeses peanut butter cups. funny, how i manage to get chocolate most of the time. she also got me a t-shirt in canada. it’s a life is good brand t-shirt, and it says...
Aug 11, 2005 | Uncategorized
i’m excited about it. i don’t know when i’m going to go and actually walk around, but i will be there tomorrow and sunday, the IL bldg, giving free chair massages. so if you want one, stop on by. but be prepared to wait! sometimes there is a very long line. i read in...
Aug 10, 2005 | Uncategorized
the ** means that things will be bolded, i guess, here in the strange coding of the blog. i didn’t intend for anything in that last entry to be bolded, it just happened, because of the *s.
Aug 10, 2005 | Uncategorized
they called! the school, that is, and left a message while i was doing a massage, and i got in! only one guy approved me. thanks, mister! not that he reads this website. YET. that was a pretty thrilling thing. now i have to be in going back to school mode. what about...
Aug 10, 2005 | Uncategorized
i just got my hair done (more blonde, lots of stripes, very very hip and chic looking), and i’ve had some caffeine and some chocolate, so i’m pretty wired at the moment. i’m going to have to calm right down soon, because i have a few massages to give this afternoon,...
Aug 9, 2005 | Uncategorized
…and live every day as it comes. does that sound sad or anything to you? i mean, just because i wrote that my life has no meaning since i finished reading harry potter#6, that doesn’t mean i’m sad. it just means that life has no meaning, but if you don’t expect...
