WHY do i have to be up right now? i was lying here saying “you’re just resting now, you’re just resting now,” but it was doing no good. i was thinking of many, many things, but suddenly all i could think about was logging on here and fixing that photo i posted last night. i wanted to make it bigger, because it’s such a good picture.
whew, got that taken care of. a very good thing, since it was SO CRITICAL TO LIFE AS I KNOW IT.
i wish i was asleep.
anyway, christine has been SLAVING over the website as usual, and she’s just put back a couple of months of archives. i had to remove all the archives from the beginning to last november, because they were riddled with thousands of evil spam comments. so she’s been doing many busy and complicated things with code and stuff in order to make the archived entries appear again, spam-free. thank you, always, christine.
my cat winston is lying here looking at me blearily, not sure why the light need to be on right now.
last evening mom and i went to jewel briefly, and took shortie and gizmo with us, because their lives are very boring and they HAVE TO GO EVERYWHERE ALL THE TIME.
we parked, got out of the car, admonishing the dogs to STAY IN THE CAR.
but shortie escape. it was terrible. he jumped out and bolted away from the car as fast as his little legs could take him, headed straight for 6th street which is very busy. he’s so fast and little and black, and i envisioned him getting hit immediately. i yelled at him, i chased him, but of course that made him run all the faster. i was wearing flip flops and carrying my purse, which i threw down on the parking lot in order to try to run faster. he headed right for a car that was leaving the store, but luckily they saw him (mostly because i was shrieking), and slowed down.
finally, before getting to the street, shortie came to a halt at a light pole, because of course he suddenly needed to pee on it. but i snatched him up before he got the chance and carried him back to the car, lecturing him on the stupidity of his actions.
he didn’t listen. he never does.
i’ve said that my dreams are boring, and since i was just asleep about an hour ago, i can remember them pretty vividly right now. one involved my glasses – they were in my purse, and i was about to go to the movie and was going to put them on, and pulled them out, except half of them was sticking out of the case, and they were all bent and scratched up and i was very upset about it. there was also a complicated yet boring part of the dream involving contact lenses, opening the case to find that all the contact lens juice had dried up, so there was a pair of lenses without liquid over them, but then there was yet another pair of lenses that i had and wanted to put in the case, and which were the newer lenses? there’s always something deep and meaningful to think about, even when sleeping.
i also spent a lot of time dreaming about having lots and lots of clothes, or maybe it’s just all the clothes i have now, except i didn’t have enough space to hang them up, and i was trying on jeans, and this dream seemed to go on and on forever.
such boring dreams.
before i turned on the light, i was thinking about school, and the stuff i need to do to get ready (like signing up for classes), and wondering about the amount of work i’ll actually have, which is something i haven’t thought about much, and worrying that maybe i won’t have enough time, and i’d have to cut back on massages, but then i won’t have any money…
i’m glad i turned on the light, at least to stop the thoughts from completely getting out of control. light helps to squelch the more irrational thoughts.
i realize that some people are already up right now; if i got in the car and went for a drive, i’m sure i’d find people out and about. i could go to the fair and see all the true fair people, the ones that sleep there in the animal barns with their animals.
i’d like to go to the fair and walk around and enjoy it, without being exhausted like last night. i hope i’ll have time to do that.
i must sleep for at least two more hours now.
ok then,
grace not sleeping as usual (but i just heard a friend, who had just told me how she hasn’t been sleeping, talking to another woman who also couldn’t sleep. NOBODY is sleeping, as far as i can tell. really, we must get together and do something productive with our non-sleeping nighttime time. i mean, not like working or anything, but something beneficial, like thinking of good ways to GO BACK TO SLEEP ALREADY).