besides the fact

that this morning it’s cold and grey and rainy and it’s supposed to be like this for five days, and here comes winter, and i pulled into a parking place under a tree that is suddenly bright yellow and at least half the leaves are gone and i KNOW it was leafy and green...

Exposition of the doctrines of grace

i’m afraid to go to sleep now, even though i’m so tired my eyes are barely open. i fear that there’s little chance of actually sleeping. not a good brain tonight. so, i thought i’d kill time by looking things up, but i couldn’t think of anything to look up, so i...

p.s. JEKYLL & HYDE

my friend ann bought tickets for the friday night show. i’ll be at the sunday afternoon show, plus i might go one night also because IT’S INCREDIBLE. please, please go see it.

macaroni and cheese pie

i’m pretty sure that’s what it was. DELICIOUS. maybe jerri will make it when we’re in denver. somebody tonight asked me if it was going to be snowing there. i said I HOPE NOT. he said, but you could ski! i said HELL NO. he said, you don’t ski? i said NO WAY. he said,...

because

i keep tilting my computer at a funny angle, because i type while lying in bed, i have stressed my power cord. it’s plugged in, but suddenly it says it’s not plugged in anymore. this has been going on for a few weeks now, and i keep thinking OH MY GOD YET ANOTHER...

weird tuesday, and ERICA CONFESSED

so, after doing very little at panera this afternoon, i went to work, but first stopped in at my sister’s salon, because i had just a little bit of extra time, and she doesn’t work on tuesdays, but the place was open for business, there were three clients there, and...

one more thing at 3:14 p.m.

i just ordered THREE 28-oz. containers of STRAWBERRY PURE SOY ISOLATE POWDER. they only cost a total of $35! PLUS, shipping is only FOUR DOLLARS! such a deal. i’m feeling more energized, just sitting here realizing that i’m not going to run out of STRAWBERRY PURE SOY...

3:02 p.m. on tuesday

ok, i’m a bad person. but you probably already figured that out. i haven’t written one single word of my play this afternoon. i did, however, look up articles for class. BUT I DIDN’T FIND ANY. i didn’t find any online, anyway; i found some that might work, but i’ll...

ok, just one more little thing b4 i work work WORK…

i was checking the statistics of my website, and i’m happy to see that yesterday i had a RECORD number of visitors. so, thanks, whoever you may be. hopefully a whole bunch of people. not just one person, checking my website every few minutes all day long. that would...

tuesday afternoon, once again at panera…

i’m sitting outside. because it’s beautiful and sunny, in the 70’s. i walked through the rose garden at washington park at lunch, and there are still plenty of roses. i’m here ostensibly to study. note to self: THIS DOES NOT COUNT AS STUDYING. but i’m gonna. at least...

p.s. BLOOD!

i KNEW there was something good about today. i gave blood. it’s a great way to do something good without having to actually do anything, except answer this litany of questions – haveyouevertakenbovinebeefsupplement...

lowering expecations revisited

many times today, i kept wishing i’d deleted that last posting from last night, but i just read it again, and i don’t think it’s really that bad. christine told me that jerri instant-messaged her, asking if i was all right, because of that last posting, i guess. it’s...

p.s. lowered expectations

i just read something on somebody’s blog about expectations, and wanting to have lower expectations about people. I FEEL THE SAME WAY. i try to have NO expectations. that way you might not get hurt. but alas, i find, it’s impossible to have no expectations, and it’s...

SUCKED IN AT 11:11 p.m. on sunday night

how did it get to be 11:11 already? i’ll tell you how – i got SUCKED IN BY TV. i was waiting for it to be nine o’clock, so i could call randy to see how his show went today. i had to wait till 9, because i knew he was watching “desperate housewives.”...

photos

the moon was coming up tonight, and it looked spectacular, and so i took some photos, but they just couldn’t do it justice. maybe a better camera? i don’t know. anyway, here’s the best one:

just one little thing early on sunday evening…

the catalogs are flooding in, in order to do the early xmas shopping. my family has announced that we’re not exchanging gifts this year. this is not such great news for me, personally. actually, it was mom and amy who made the pronouncement. i think dad is already...

sunday afternoon

yesterday, mom, my aunt sandy, randy and i went to the cat show. there were many very cute cats, and quite a few people there viewing them. there were many cat-related things for sale. the only one i found appalling was a sweatshirt featuring a cat wearing a red hat....

1:12 a.m. – RATZ!

i think i’m actually asleep. i should be asleep, anyway, but i’m not. GO SEE JEKYLL & HYDE. Go tomorow night, or sunday afternoon, or next weekend. YOU HAVE TO GO SEE IT. my expectations were low. very, very low. it was incredible. the musical is incredible. the...

5:55 p.m. friday

if you had to sit inside all day today, i’m sorry, but please, please, go outside tomorrow. it’s going to be lovely yet again. it was so warm today that i had to turn on my air conditioning in the car! crazy. i bought three pieces of lavender luggage. it’s very...

NOON on friday

tired now. knew the euphoria wouldn’t last. not a downward spiral or anything, just need a nap. but it’s only NOON. you haven’t been OUT OF BED LONG ENOUGH for a nap. yet. i have a massage in a few minutes, but i’m going to sit outside for a while and absorb some...

9:51 a.m. FRIDAY

and i have SO MUCH ENERGY THIS MORNING. because of running (FAST!) and then drinking my magic soy protein breakfast of champions. i hope you order some, but then again, maybe it wouldn’t have the same effect on you. no promises, no money-back guarantee. as i headed...

9:01 p.m. thursday

seven pages done! that’s HUGE! plus i figured out some things about where the story is going. i realy love writing, and maybe, just MAYBE i’ll manage to keep going. tomorrow afternoon, after doing massages, i’m going to buy a new suitcase. the one i usually take...

7:50 p.m.

made it to the end of the scene. YEAH! but just spent several minutes looking things up online. BAD BAD BAD. must continue to focus…or at least go look at the snack selection in the vending machine.

7:09 p.m. thursday

FINALLY i started writing, after re-reading what i’d written, and i’ve written about a page and a half, not much, but at least i’m FINALLY DOING SOMETHING AGAIN. how will i continue tomorow, though? don’t think about that now. just keep writing. i wrote to my...

WEDNESDAY NIGHT…

as the week continues to crawl along at a snail’s pace… whew, i was going to go to sleep ULTRA-EARLY tonight, but that would have been right now. i don’t know why i’m so tired. in 1999, for xmas, my parents bought me a UNITED STATES OF AMERICA STATE COIN...

photos

here’s a photo of gregg and felicia, in “you can’t take it with you.” and here’s a photo of me in the show. having fun. you have to have fun. smile.

on tuesday night…

i sit here, hoping, always hoping, ever hopefuly (WHEN WILL YOU LEARN TO QUIT BEING SO DAMN HOPEFUL???), that i’ll get an e-mail from somebody. considering all the writing i do, i get an amazingly miniscule amount of correspondence from anybody. i got a few e-mails...

now what am i gonna do?

(besides TOTALLY WASTING TIME and NOT GETTING ANY HOMEWORK DONE) – i remembered that in class n monday night, people were talking about the schedule for the spring, so i’ve been looking at it. NONE OF THE ENGLISH CLASSES LOOKS APPEALING AT ALL. so now what am i...

belated wishes, plus VULTURE FEST…

SOMEBODY, at least, sent me belated columbus day wishes. he also sent me a website, about a VULTUREFEST, which sounds kind of cool. it’s in southern illinois, near Giant City state park, where i’ve been wanting to go camping, except now it’s probably too cold for...