i love the library. is there a way i could make a living hanging out at the library, looking stuff up, reading books? no, i know it’s not possible. just like it’s not possible to make any money going camping. i don’t know if/when i’ll go camping again, except i do have my sleeping bag in the trunk of my car. i don’t know why it’s still there, but i haven’t thought of a good reason to take it inside the house. maybe i’ll get tired sometime and i’m in my car and i’ll pull out my sleeping bag and take a nap in the park or something. you never know.
today i found six books for my second english paper. i also found four articles. the paper has to be a minimum of 2500 words. that’s about 10 double-spaced pages, which really isn’t very long. but my first paper started out at 13 pages, and then when i had to make changes to it, it was 15 pages.
i’m going to try to make this paper shorter. except i already have way more stuff to read for it, because the books sounded interesting. i only used about two articles for my last paper, so clearly, i’m already in trouble, information-wise. better too much than too little, right? right?
i also really like being at the library because i can just focus on my Task At Hand. this is very good. Focus. on academics.
i brought my laptop with me, in my new lavendar little suitcase on wheels. i like wheeling it all around, instead of carrying my heavy laptop backpack around on my shoulders which are always in need of a massage anyway (and no, i’m not getting any massages, even though i alway TELL people i get them a lot, even though i really need them), and carrying around my computer just makes my shoulders worse.
i think i saw a guy from “a few good men” here at the library this afternoon, but i wasn’t sure if it was him, and also, he was sitting at a computer with a great big monitor and the screen was filled with photos of women, so i assume he was looking for a woman online, and i hated to bother him…ironic, isn’t it? a real, actual, woman, not just a photo, not making any contact with a guy who is clearly, blatantly wanting to meet women?
but probably an actual woman would scare him. and not that he’d have been interested in talking to me, because quite frankly, i didn’t care how i looked to go to the library, so i’m no makeup, sweats, wearing my new favorite t-shirt, which is big and baggy and dark blue and used to be my brother-in-law jim’s. it says UNDERDOG on it, and there’s a picture of underdog and it makes me happy to wear it. i wore it the other day (because i wear it as much as possible), and amy looked at it and said “jim, did you give away the t-shirt i gave you?” and jim said “it was too small for me,” or maybe he said “it got too small for me,” all i know is i felt bad there for a minute, but amy seems to have forgotten about it, or maybe it doesn’t matter to them in the greater scheme of their relationship anyway.
i find that men who seek women online generally don’t do so well with the face-to-face type of encounters. this isn’t true all the time, but i’m starting to think that soon many relationships will actually just be people online instant-messaging each other. i walked past another guy who was furiously pounding on the keyboard, and as i glanced at his screen, he was very very intent on the instant-messaging.
soon we will only have to have a minimum of actual contact with other human beings. you won’t have to be you at all, you can be anybody you want to be, and by having only the minimal contact, you won’t have to reveal too much about who you actually might be. i guess you can do that right now, as a matter of fact.
is this a good thing?
i have to check out now. i can keep these books for a YEAR if i feel like it.
it’s good to be in school.
ok then,
just grace.