this morning i told somebody that nothing matters. NOTHING. MATTERS. i don’t think i entirely convinced him.
but it doesn’t. really.
matter.
nothing.
hmm, how does that tone sound to you, the reader? kind of surly, maybe? or just completely apathetic about life as it is going on all around every single minute of every single day?
that’s it. the latter. apathy. not exactly surly or bitter or anything like that.
last night i washed down one half an antihistamine with a glass of red wine. not a WINE glass, because they’re too tippy and there would be an excellent chance of knocking it over. a juice glass.
it worked, really well. OUT like a light i was, and then i slept and slept.
weird dreams, though. but this was a refreshing change from the usual boring dreams.
except the weird dreams were a little disturbing.
i slept up till five a.m. – ok, this is not the time i normally get up. as a matter of fact, i can’t exactly recall if i’ve ever gotten up at five. i’m sure i did at some time in my life, but it’s been a while. but even then, i didn’t lie there tossing and turning for hours, i went back to sleep.
drugs are your friend.
as long as you don’t ABUSE them, of course. like, if i’d taken a WHOLE antihistamine instead of a half. then i’d have been really groggy today, and that won’t do because i’m about to MASSAGE AND MASSAGE AND MASSAGE.
a very very busy afternoon. in just a few minutes.
and then rehearsal. and thad and christine will come to my rehearsal and we’ll go out.
but i hope they won’t expect to stay out late because i just can’t do that.
but maybe i’ll go really crazy and have a diet coke today. that should keep me up late.
sun, by the way? no. hell no. no more sun. sorry, charlie, maybe there’ll be sun in 2006?
which, in case you haven’t heard, is going to be a really FANTASTIC year.
my character in the play, says FANTASTIC a lot. also TERRIFIC. quite a bit of that.
FANTASTIC, with a british accent. and doing it with the issue makes it sound even more…FANTASTIC.
ok, work work work,
ready for anything grace.