there’s SO MUCH i want to write right now, but it’s almost midnight, i was going to be in bed by 11, but somehow that didn’t happen.
i got a B+ on my first english paper. not bad, considering that it’s been a really really long time since i’ve written an english paper, plus i think those old papers i wrote were pretty terrible.
mostly i got a B+ because i used contractions. YOU ARE NOT SUPPOSED TO USE CONTRACTIONS. he circled every single one, and there were many, many of them. also, some of my conclusions were “cloudy,” also easy to fix. the great thing is that i’m going to meet with him tomorrow, and then i fix the paper, and then, erica tells me, he’ll probably give me an A! how cool is that, getting to improve your grade?
i’ve been packing, that’s why it’s so late. i spent a lot of time wandering around looking for things. there’s this play i’m supposed to read, and it’s a bright pink book, so you’d think it would stand out, but it seems to have disappeared. i finally gave up, and started looking for this little travel-size bottle of perfume, but it, too, seems to have fallen into a black hole. i decided to give up on that for now, too. maybe i’ll have a little free time tomorrow to seach some more.
of course i packed way too many things. i did take out a sweater and a t-shirt, and that made me feel virtuous. i was talking to my friend kurt on the phone while packing, and he explained that when he packed to go on vacation, it took him 10 minutes, and all he took was a couple of t-shirts and shorts.
but he’s a guy. i pointed this out to him.
i’m also hoping that tomorrow i’ll have time to re-think the many many things i’m taking with me, maybe take some of them out. because i KNOW that you don’t need as many things as i’m taking. and yet i feel that i will need them.
kurt and i are going to make some videos when i get back. funny videos.
i was kind of sad to leave amy and jim’s menagerie today, because all the animals are just so cute. but last night in the middle of the night, i was awakened a couple of times – once because a couple of cats decided to have a big fight, and once when the dogs started barking for no reason, and then began to howl. if i just yell BE QUIET really loud, they stop, but it’s hard to get that much energy to yell in the middle of the night.
tonight my own kittie, winnie, is very happy to see me, and he’s lying here in bed with me, purring, and i feel bad that i’m going to be gone so long.
but he’ll survive. he’s a cat. cats are very resilient.
plus that whole nine lives thing.
i’d kind of like to have that.
sometimes i think about who i’d like to be in another life. i feel that surely, in one more past lives, if i believed in that whole concept, and sometimes i do but sometimes i don’t, i must have been a guy who was really anal and had a very rigid, structured life. and he probably made lots and lots of money, and he was very driven. but also probably not so happy. that’s just my theory. so the only part of me that’s like that now is that i sometimes i wish i were more driven, and i’d like to have more money, and i could be happier. but i’m pretty ok with the life right now, but of course i just happen to be going on VACATION tomorrow, so of course that colors things a bit.
one thing i forgot to mention about “jekyll & hyde” – when i went to see it again on sunday afternoon, i suddenly started thinking about the fancy patent leather shoes that the men wore in some fancy dress ball scene. they reminded me of tap shoes, and i thought about tap dancing, because it’s something i enjoy but haven’t done in years and years. and then i thought, what if i suddenly went crazy and went up on stage and started tap dancing right there in the middle of the scene.
wouldn’t that be awful, if somebody did that?
once i mentioned to someone about a random idea similar to that that i had, and he assured me that he never had thoughts like that.
not that i’d ever act on any of the odd things that i think about, but sometimes i think, what if NOW’S THE TIME that i suddenly SNAP and go crazy, and jump up on a stage and start tap-dancing…or something else like that, entirely inappropriate.
my english paper also had some insubordinate dangling clause participles, or something like that. i’ll have to fix them, assuming i can pretend to know exactly what they are.
good night.
ok then,
grace not feeling like going berserk at this particular moment, which is a good thing, but i’m too tired to even do anything at all right now, and certainly not anything crazy.