gee WHIZ i need to get to sleep. i’ve been talking on the phone to scott for a while now. scott and i were together for about eight years, on and off, and we’ve been broken up for 10 1/2 years now. a very, very long time. i haven’t talked to him on the phone for a long time because we never seem to connect at the right time. it was nice to talk to him tonight. i’m glad we can be friends. for a while after we broke up for the last and final time, i was first just incredibly upset to be without him, and then i sort of hated him, but after a while i liked him again, and now we’re friends. christine and i went to austin to visit him almost two years ago, and it was fun, and i’ll probably go visit him again this spring, before the weather gets nice here.
it’s just funny about old boyfriends. scott won’t ever read this writing here, i’m not exactly sure why. but that’s ok. but at the same time it’s kind of annoying, but not annoying to actually be upset about, because it’s just scott, that’s the way he is.
it’s just nice to have a little history with a person, there aren’t a lot of people in my life who i have that much history with. i don’t have friends from childhood, nobody from high school or anything, if i do happen to see somebody i might have gone to high school with, i generally try to duck and avoid them. this works quite well, by the way.
i should be asleep. i am in bed, i’m very ready to go to sleep, but not quite there yet.
any minute now. before it becomes december 27th.
tomorrow night, rehearsal for my show and then rehearsal for the play i’m in. this is after a bunch of massages. busy busy busy.
it’s supposed to be FIFTY DEGREES here tomorrow, so all i really want to do is hang out outside.
it’s ok. things are ok. in an ok kind of way. kind of ok, but then again, some things are quite far from being ok. but these things, too, will be resolved, this week, and then things will all be ok.
not exactly good, not good, but ok. tolerable. manageable.
ok.
ok.
that’s all i have to say at this time.
grace. smith.