this was my main goal for the evening – TURN OUT THE LIGHTS BY 10 P.M.
it is now 10:53. how am i not able to even do this one little simple thing?
i have no control over my fingers. they just keep typing, independently of me.
i took an antihistimine that makes me sleepy. i was exhausted and drained all day, so i can’t tell if i’m sleepy or just…sleepy.
about five o’clock i started getting THE COUGH. this horrible cough that can last up to 100 years and develops into bronchitis and makes me crazy. i keep trying to WILL THIS THING AWAY, but it’s gaining on me. i took three emergen C’s today, this stuff that fizzes in water and it’s about two million mg’s of vitamin c. no avail.
i’m going to see HARRY POTTER on FRIDAY AFTERNOON, the tickets have already been purchased.
I CAN’T COUGH ALL THROUGH THE MOVIE.
if i start coughing, i’ll have to bolt to the lobby so as not to disturb others.
i’m going to buy some extra super duper strength cough drops tomorrow. all i have are ricola sugar-free cough drops, and they’re just not strong enough.
i HATE cough drops in general.
one time a farmer friend of mine, mick, gave me something called “fisherman’s friend” and all i remember is that it was the WORST COUGH DROP EVER. maybe i should get some; if they’re that horrible, surely they must be very effective.
everybody seems depressed, by the way. mostly everybody. everybody who’s being honest, maybe? everybody seems to have some level of angst, depression, stuff that keeps them up at night. worries, strife, it’s all too much to bear.
i wrote a couple of e-mails to people tonight with a solution – DISNEYWORLD. i actually said DISNEYLAND, because that’s where i went last, but i was living in LA at the time, but i guess DISNEWORLD would make more sense to go to from here in illinois.
but just to go there and ride the pirates of the caribbean ride, and the peter pan ride, and the haunted house ride, all those great, fun, childish brief ESCAPES from real life.
you, yourself, could go on a roller coaster if you want to. me, i’ll stick with the peter pan ride, over and over again.
i wrote a thing about the pirates of the caribbean ride; you can read it if you want. it’s in the “what’s new la” section, and it’s the very first thing i wrote. i adapted it and used it in my very first “gracetalk” performance, except phil had me cut out the part where i actually sang the tiki room song (If you’re been deprived and haven’t been to disney world or land, the tiki room is this great room filled with mechanical birds, and they sing and it’s very campy and funny and silly and the SONG goes “in the tiki tiki tiki tiki tiki room…” over and over). sometimes i think about that tiki room song, and how much i’d like to sing it.
not for gractalk #3, though, which is going to officially be at EIGHT o’clock not at 10, as i previously stated.
i got my contract in the mail today. so it’s official.
must get busy….
but first, i have to get better! then what are you doing sitting here typing like some kind of cretin! i can’t help myself! are you saying you have no free will? sometimes, no! i don’t believe you! free will doesn’t grow on TREES, you know!
i’m a gemini, did you know that? dual personality. it can be a drag sometimes, but then again, i’m never lonely, there’s always me and me right here.
ok then,
november grace.