…and i just woke up from a nap. i napped for about an hour, except much of the time i wasn’t really, truly sleeping, i was lying here with my eyes closed, thinking about things.
i do have to say i was certainly wildly ambitious at two a.m. last night, imagining that i was going to leap out of bed and go running and do a lot of stuff.
one thing i wonder is, just what was that stuff i was planning on doing? because right at the moment i can’t think of one pressing thing to do. i mean, not at all.
napping was good. i kind of wanted to continue with the nap, but i figured i can’t nap all day long. i mean, i could, but then you know, no sleep at all tonight.
instead of waking up in the middle of the night, i woke up at seven since i’d been up so late. i laid there for a couple of hours. no bad thoughts at all.
i still have the hair extensions in my hair. amy was going to take them out today, but then she suggested i try washing my hair with the extensions in, just to see what happens. i don’t have a great feeling about this idea, but i’ll try it anyway. the extensions do look pretty good, but not quite right with my sweats and my favorite t-shirt that used to be jim’s that has a picture of underdog on it.
i sort of feel that it would be kind of cool to have the extensions all the time, except that sleeping in them wasn’t so great. they’re glued to my hair in three bands around my head, and it felt like wearing a hat with hard ridges in it. not so comfortable for the sleeping.
but i guess one has to suffer for beauty, right?
NO.
so that’s the stuff i have to do today; i have to wash my hair. i believe i will successfully complete this difficult task.
after that…perhaps a movie. maybe a snack. i guess if i really thought about it, there are probably things i could be doing. productive-type things.
but i sorta feel that being very unproductive on the very first day of the year might be a very very good thing. because if i were to suddenly leap about, running hither and yon, accomplishing all kinds of stuff (if i could ever think of what the stuff might be), well then, i’d have so much to live up to the rest of the year.
much better, in my opinion, to start out gradually. being patient, waiting for all the goodness that is surely in store for me in 2006 to unfold. calmly and rationally and with ease.
ok, now that the show is over, i can tell you some of the stuff i discussed. i ran down a list of things i covered in other shows, including losing on the 100,000 pyramid and going to a very very fancy wedding reception in beverly hills where all the other wedding guests wore black and i wore a short pink slipdress. there’s the photo of the dress just a few entries back.
the only problem with running quickly through these different things is that i didn’t have time to tell the whole stories. i didn’t want to talk about the same things, i wanted to talk about new things, but some of those stories were pretty funny. i didn’t mention, for example, that the groom of the wedding reception was the son of one of the owners of hewlett packard. i can’t recall if it was hewlett or packard, but this is why it was such an extraordinarily lavish deal, with so much fanciness that i know i’ll never see anything quite that fancy again.
i also didn’t mention that the boyfriend who took me to this party didn’t bother to tell me that a pink slip dress wouldn’t be appropriate for the event, and that i was thinking maybe he wanted people to think he was dating a hooker.
because that’s definitely what i looked like, up against the sea of people in their formal black black BLACK outfits.
my basic premise last night was that instead of new year’s resolutions, you should have two lists – a list of things you like, and things you don’t like, and then you should focus on doing more stuff you like and less you dislike. this gave me an opportunity to discuss things i like and don’t like.
but i had to leave a of stuff off both lists. maybe i’ll tell you some of those sometime.
now really, even though i said no new year’s resolutions, i actually do have one. i had one, but then i decided i have two. so i have two of them. if i thought about it, i probably have other things that i’m determined to accomplish, probably at least one or two, maybe a half dozen. but the two main things are what i’ll be focusing on.
and with that, i must now wash my hair.
starting the new year off with much much vim and vigor…
ok then,
grace easing into 2006.