where is it? yesterday i downgraded from my big green winter coat to my old leather jacket, figuring that it’s spring, it must be a little warmer.
i was cold ALL DAY LONG. and annoyed by the cold. not to mention the pounding rain; i had to drive on the highway a little in the rain and that made me very mad. before that i was at barnes-n-noble, and i had to slog through lots and lots of water to get inside. i took my umbrella since it was POURING, but then i had to carry it around with me in the store, and it kept dripping on me. i tried to think quiet thoughts (and i was looking for meditation books), but the feeling of annoyance wouldn’t leave.
not very calm and peaceful, i’m afraid.
i will say that the grass is suddenly starting to get green, a very good sign. but today i put the great big green winter coat back on, plus a sweater. i hate being cold.
wednesday already, the week is half over, almost. i have no easter plans; if i had an easter bonnet, i might wear it to church. but i feel that since i’ve been to three churches in the past couple of months, i need a little rest from them. i guess one didn’t really count since i was there by mistake, but i WAS there. enough to drink the kool-aid, if i’d wanted to. kool-aid, i’m sure it’s not kool-aid. but what would be holy enough to substitute for the blood of Christ, anyway? are they allowed to still use the wine? maybe so.
all right, i feel a lot of potentially (unintentionally) blasphemous things coming on, so i’d better stop now.
i will just say that when i first tried stand-up comedy, when i lived in LA, this was probably about eight years ago, maybe? i wrote about Jesus, wondering what happened to him during the teen years, since nobody ever talked about that, just jesus the baby in the swaddling clothes and then jesus the man who was good. i felt there was a lot of grey area, though.
enough already. stay warm, and in a few months, spring will arrive.
ok then,
grace still searching