hmm. i’m considering getting some sort of night job where i’d get up at two a.m. and i’d be up working for a few hours. i could get a lot done, and then i’d fall asleep, at least in theory.
my basic goal for the day today was to finally get back to the gym, and after taking a nap for about an hour, i did that. mission accomplished.
the key is to set really really small goals, ones that are almost impossible NOT to achieve.
i walked on the stairmaster to nowhere for a while and instead of reading, i just wasn’t in the mood to read for some reason, i watched tv. i watched some music videos and i watched part of “how to be a millionaire” and a little bit of dr. phil. i suppose he has lots of good advice, but his show mostly seemed to be telling the HORRIBLE STORIES of the lives of these people, and then re-telling them, and talking about how it would be good to try to help them, and in between just commercial after commercial after commercial and i felt that the whole show should have really only taken about 15 minutes, tops. i missed the dramatic conclusion to the story of the woman whose father thought she was posessed when she was nine years old and so he did an exorcism on her and that pretty much wrecked the rest of her life, and she’s not that old now.
so dr. phil just kept saying to her “you’d like me to tell you what your problem is, and you’d like me to give you some suggestions for changing your life, right?” and the woman would agree, and then there would be yet ANOTHER commercial.
tv. c’mon.
dr. phil also said something about how he injured his knee and so he would favor it and try to protect it (was this guy a football player? i feel that he might have been), and his doctor told him that if he kept protecting the knee he’d just injure it again. he needed to just GO OUT THERE AND PLAY, throw himself into the game, and it’d work out.
i assume it worked out; i didn’t see dr. phil standing up at all; perhaps he can’t walk at all.
but i felt that this would probably be good advice for the living of the life. just going out there and playing.
gee whiz, so very deep and profound for a gloomy thursday afternoon. i read in the paper that we’re not supposed to have ANY MORE REALLY BAD WEATHER, which was great to hear. not that i necessarily believe what i read, but i like to hope that that’s so, that the bitter cold and TOO MUCH SNOW we had in december is the end of the bad weather. it’s just dark out today, though, and it keeps spitting snow/rain and it’s not a lot of fun to walk around in.
so luckily i’m about to give a massage in my room with no windows and i can pretend that it’s warm and lovely outside.
friday, coming right up.
ok then,
2006 grace.