first, let me note that my last missive, written on march 24th, was exactly TWO MONTHS before my birthday, so you still have lots of time to buy me lovely gifts.
ok, anyway, i’m still actually in bed this morning, and i want to talk briefly about my split personality. you might have noticed that the last thing i wrote, very late at night, was pretty cheerful and happy and funny, because that’s how i get as the day progresses, usually.
that was Nighttime Grace.
but right now, Morning Grace. not the same person at all. well, i might look similar to NTG, but MG isn’t such a cheerful person. and actually, if you were to appear at my door right now, i would APPEAR to be more like NTG, but in my head it’s a whole different story.
Morning Grace – i’m all about the practicalness of like, and definitely, the outlook on things is fairly bleak. things are bad, and if i think about where they’re headed, they’re surely only going to get worse. this is why, in the morning, i try not to think about where things are headed at all. i just try to think about all the things i need to do, and i generally snarl at myself about all the stuff i didn’t get done yesterday.
and i’m very stern with myself, and i think about whatever thing it was i ate last night that i SHOULDN’T have. at least i didn’t eat something bad last night, so that’s one thing to not be crabby about. but still, there’s plenty of badness to think about.
Morning Grace, i can get a lot done, but i realize i’m not the best person to have inside my head. at least i’m very self-aware, and i know that if i can just tiptoe around myself (which involves many graceful moves), that by midday, things will start to look up as Morning Grace finally starts to march briskly out of the picture and Nighttime Grace starts stumbling and staggering into view.
I’m going to meditate right now, which will hopefully at least get MG to settle down a bit, and then i’ll exercise myself into at least a temporary state of endorphin rush good feeling, and since i slept late today, well then, lunchtime is right around the corner.
ok, too much lollygagging around here, i must GET BUSY. march march march.
morning grace with a vengeance