have i mentioned the dress i’m planning on wearing for the wedding? it’s pink. it’s very beautiful.
i tried it on about an hour ago and have been putting this off because i know i’ve gained some weight in the past few months. but in the past few days i’ve decided that i’ve been losing weight.
HOW do i think i’ve been accomplishing this? all the going out to dinner? all the bowls of sugar-free BUT NOT FAT FREE ice cream? all the glasses of wine and chocolates while playing boggle at randy’s? all the other bowls of ice cream? more going out to dinner? going out to lunch? going out to brunch???
OF COURSE i haven’t lost any weight.
I CAN’T ZIP THE DRESS UP.
i can get it halfway up, exactly.
IT USED TO ZIP UP.
when i bought it, anyway.
i recall that it was slightly tight, but looked really really good.
DON’T PANIC.
panicking is making me want to EAT A BIG BOWL OF ICE CREAM.
damn. damnitall.
ok, i have nine weeks.
NINE WEEKS.
after i tried on the dress i decided to take mollie for a walk. besides this urgent need i now have to exercise more, i figured mollie has been cooped up all day because it’s been so hot.
it’s still hot, but at least the darkness give the illusion of more coolness.
after we walked for about three minutes i got bored and said to mollie LET’S RUN. so we ran instead, for about 23 minutes, which is a paltry amount for us, but it WAS hot and it was also quite dark. i worried a little about the darkness, afraid i was going to fall on my face, but i only almost tripped one time.
incidentally, i did manage to catch myself before splatting on the ground, and i remembered that this was the exact place, a buckle in the sidewalk, where i had actually fallen down a couple of years ago. and that was DURING THE DAY.
maybe i’m getting more agile as i get older.
uh huh.
Winnie is sleeping on the chair next to me and he’s very happy and untroubled because he has NO DRESS TO FIT INTO THAT HE CAN’T ZIP UP.
he just wishes i was a little smaller so he could have more of the chair cushion.
i’m going to go not eat a big bowl of ice cream now.
NINE WHOLE WEEKS. NINE WHOLE WEEKS.
ok, one more thing, when i was looking up tent places today (THE TENT IS GOING TO COST QUITE A BIT), one of the sites had a heading called “wedding countdown” and i KNEW i shouldn’t have looked at it but i did and was of course not happy because they listed stuff like “12 to 18 months before the wedding” and “nine months before the wedding.” I DON’T THINK MFH AND I WERE EVEN TALKING TO EACH OTHER TWELVE MONTHS BEFORE THE WEDDING. i know that wedding plans were not in our future at that time.
deep breaths. the dress will zip up, you’ll see.
i could always wear a mumu, instead.
goodnight.
july grace.