and why, oh why, isn’t my mood better, since it’s FRIDAY, and there’s nothing but relaxation ahead of me? well, for one thing, i have plenty of massages this afternoon, and i’m a little sluggish and surly for no good reason right now. i mean, it’s cooler and less humid today, but when i went running, not till 8:20, i felt like my legs were leaden and weren’t working quite right. one foot in front of the other, it’s not like it’s a hard thing to accomplish. i ran for 36 minutes, and i felt like i was going slower and slower and slower…
this weekend, a bevy of exercise. swimbikerunswimbikerunswimbikerun. only swimming when i have plenty of time for napping afterwards, though. will there be cots at the triathlon, so i can go to sleep right when it’s over? the triathlon is TWO SHORT WEEKS from tomorrow. oh boy. i mean, realistically, i know i can do it. i know i can. i keep telling myself that when i hit that water i will NOT FREAK OUT AND SWIM AS FAST AS I CAN. because that’s what i did at the little triathlon, and by the end of the swim i was ready to pass out and die. i’ve decided that i’m going to get in the water LAST, and i’m not going to try to compete with ANYBODY, i’m just going to swim like i always do, lumbering along in the water, trying not to swallow too much water. last night i talked to a guy who told me that he doesn’t have a good swimming technique, which is why he’d never try a triathlon, but a poor form certainly isn’t stopping me. from flunking swimming lessons to swimming a triathlon, surely that’s progress.
i find it very unlikely that i’m going to sleep outside tonight. for one thing, i don’t actually have a sleeping bag of my own. i guess i could borrow one from somebody, but that would involve calling people, and i’m in no mood for calling anybody at the moment.
ok, i must work work work right now. fireworks ahead! that’s a cheery thought. fireworks have always been one of my favorite things. when i lived in la, one of my favorite places to go was the hollywood bowl, which sometimes combined two of my best things – outdoor music and fireworks. the fireworks there were spectacular, and sitting in that outdoor theater listening to great music was incredible. that’s one thing i really miss about LA. there are more things about it i don’t miss, though, so i guess i’ll stay here in spfld. for a while longer.
and after all, we do have muni, and fireworks over the lake.
ok then,
grace struggling to force a mood change RIGHT NOW.