there was a thing on npr this evening about the upcoming pandemic in which all of us are going to DIE before winter is over, which is why i just ate four pieces of chocolate, about what they’re doing in vietnam to try to stave off the flu pandemic. i believe they said they’re discouraging people from eating DUCKSBLOOD SOUP.

my central question is, WHY WOULD YOU EVER EAT SUCH A THING???

and if you have been eating bowlfuls of it, please stop, right now. does campbell’s have a special select line of fancy, designer soups, including DUCKSBLOOD SOUP?

is it red? is my other question, although i assume it is.

so, stop eating it because it SOUNDS LIKE THE MOST VILE THING IN THE WORLD, and also, because it will help spread the flu that’s going to kill us all anyway. so i guess you might as well eat the soup, now that i think about it, because if you crave the DUCKSBLOOD SOUP, it’s the only thing you love to eat, well then, since we’ll all be dead by spring, you might as well die with a smile (with a bit of bloody red soup oozing out of the corner of your cold lips) on your face.

they’re also vaccinating chickens.

on monday, when you’re wondering why you were born and feeling very depressed about life and all of that, you can say to yourself AT LEAST I DON’T HAVE A JOB VACCINATING CHICKENS. i can’t imagine that it would be pleaseant in anyway. is all i’m saying.

i got back to springfield, fyi, thanks for all the outpouring of e-mail asking if i got back.

I’VE GOTTEN NO E-MAIL AT ALL SINCE I GOT BACK. NOT ONE GODDAMN E-MAIL.

except for junk e-mail.

i’ve been very busy. tonight we read my play in class. they all liked it. this was gratifying, but when i heard it read aloud, there were things that seemed glaringly apparent that needed fixing. so it was good.

i’m going to TWO cabin concerts this weekend at my friend ann’s house. the first one is tomorrow night, claire lynch, it’s been SOLD OUT for a while now, and i’m pretty sure it’s going to be great. the other one is on sunday afternoon, by wil maring, who i know is great, and then we’re going to have a potluck supper. a 60 people potluck supper. i’m thinking there will be LOTS AND LOTS OF FOOD there.

i’m making guacamole.

ok, so one other thing that’s vexing me, besides finding out that there is such a thing as DUCKSBLOOD SOUP, is this post-halloween candy thing. the chocolate candy is EVERYWHERE, and of course when it’s so pervasive, my only choice is to EAT IT ALL.

very bad.

at my parents’ house, there was a large basket of halloween chocolates. this included many fall-colored hershey’s kisses, and they were delicious. but last night there were some siler kisses, and i had one, and it was STALE AND TASTED LIKE CRAP. no chocolate taste at all. i said “where did these crappy chocolates come from?” from amy. the crappy kisses that they had at their house were FOLLOWING me!

i only ate the one.

i was at W.’s (Whistler’s) house today, and asked him where his giant bowl of halloween chocolates had gone to. figuring that i’d be a good person and EAT A BUNCH OF THEM.

“i packaged them up and am taking them to work,” he said.

WHAT ABOUT ME??? WHAT ABOUT MY CHOCOLATE NEEDS?????

i can’t believe the people he works with are RIGHT NOW eating all the delicious halloween chocolates.

very, very sad.

very sad.

very.

sad.

perhaps there will be chocolate in my life tomorrow. you never can tell. always trying to look for the sunny side of the street, the silver lining in the cloud, the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow…

or just the good chocolate.

it’s nice to be back in springfield where it was in the SEVENTIES today. and i believe it’s going to get there tomorrow, and then again next week.

i believe we’re just going to skip the shitty grey cold of winter altogether this year.

hope, not giving up hope…

ok then,

grace who is going to be in FIRST NIGHT, which i’m very excited about and have a good idea of what to talk about but i need to GET RIGHT TO WORK on my script ASAP!