so i was sitting in this movie tonight (“rumor has it” with jennifer aniston and kevin costner, and it was pretty good), i suddenly thought about a new year’s day long long ago…
my very first boyfriend, chris, who i thought i was going to marry and live happily ever after with in an actual house with a white picket fence, had a new year’s eve party my freshman year of college.
we served alcoholic punch. it might have been made with rum, or perhaps vodka.
i was in charge of mixing the punch.
i was mixing the punch before the party started, and i kept tasting it to see if it was ok.
by the time the party started, i was drunk.
as the evening went on i got more and more drunk.
i was wearing this shimmery silver dress with a slip under it that kept slipping down. i’d run into another room to hoist up the slip…but at the evening wore on and i got more and more drunk, i gave up running into another room and would just hoist the slip up wherever i happened to be.
i believe this is the night i buried a photo of chris’s ex-girlfriend.
on more than one occasion i’ve had boyfriends who had perfect in every way ex-girlfriends who they didn’t seem to be over and seemed to worship still.
chris had a photo of his old girlfriend in his bedroom. why didn’t i ever ask him to take it down? i just don’t know. but i didn’t. but it bothered me, this totally perfect girl. so when i got drunk on new year’s eve, i buried the photo in the snow.
i’ve always had a problem attempting to be aggressive, and this is about as aggressive as i’ve ever gotten.
also at this party, there was this perfect couple at the party. ralph and angie. they had dated all through high school i think, and both were very smart and she was a cheerleader and very very cute and adorable.
but at some point in the evening, ralph kissed me. and although this was a very long time ago, i’m pretty sure he kept following me around trying to kiss me throughout the evening.
this was bewildering to me, because they were a PERFECT COUPLE, so why on earth would he be kissing anybody else? and especially, why would he be kissing ME of all people? angie was PERFECT. and i certainly wasn’t.
i wonder if they got married and lived happily ever after. and if he still chases other women around at new year’s parties.
anyway, my point was going to be that on the day after this wild new year’s eve, on new year’s day chris went back to college and i went to a movie with my family and i have a pretty vivid memory of being at the movie being very very hungover.
not a great way to start the new year.
today, not hungover, but very tired. i finally perked up about 10 o’clock, and i actually beat randy at boggle.
the family all started watching a show about coffee which bored me to tears, so i escaped.
2006, i’m still pretty sure it’s going to be pretty darn good.
and now, sleep.
goodnight.
january grace.