I was starting to listen to dave brubeck\u2019s \u201ctime out,\u201d but decided it was just a little\u2026busy. Too much energy for right now. So instead I put on a cd that may or may not have been a gift. Either that, or I\u2019ve accidentally stolen it. It\u2019s some truly lovely piano music.<\/p>\n
Today has been both good and bad. Good, because for some reason my mood has been pretty darn good. This was a refreshing and delightful change, and I\u2019d like more days like this.<\/p>\n
Bad, because I injured myself.<\/p>\n
But I injure myself quite a lot, so this is nothing new. But it\u2019s a little bit challenging to give massages when I\u2019m in quite a bit of pain. I\u2019ve just self-medicated myself, and who knows, maybe I\u2019ll sleep through the night, and I\u2019ll feel all better tomorrow.<\/p>\n
I broke my toe once, and that was really awful because I couldn\u2019t exercise for six weeks. I\u2019m always running into walls and things, so I always have at least a couple of bruises.<\/p>\n
And sometimes I hurt myself when working out. Like today. Yesterday I decided it was finally time to GET SERIOUS ABOUT WEIGHT-LIFTING. Because if I don\u2019t, my bones will become brittle eventually, and they\u2019ll break, and that will be very, very bad.<\/p>\n
Realistically, I must note, that this would probably never, ever happen, because I\u2019ve always been a huge fan of all dairy products. I feel that my bones are very heavy and dense.<\/p>\n
But anyway, yesterday I started with lower body weight-lifting. It went Ok. Today I did upper body, and it went kind of OK, except I had more energy this morning so I was more vigorous. I then went to hang up something in my locker and I stretched and a little muscle in my back went \u201csprooooiiinnnngggg.\u201d Ow. At first, the pain was so bad that it was difficult to take a deep breath. I\u2019ve been taking painkillers all day, and right now the pain is only somewhat annoying.<\/p>\n
I almost launched into a philosophical discourse on physical vs. emotional pain, but you can imagine what I\u2019d have to say about it, so I\u2019ll skip that for now. I\u2019m sure you can fill in the blanks.<\/p>\n
Here\u2019s one good AND bad thing about today \u2013 I took a nap. I was so happy to take a real, true nap, one that lasted more than 13 minutes, which is all I had time for on Saturday afternoon. This was a delicious, totally satisfying 40 minute nap. It was so quiet here in the middle of the day, so nice to just fall asleep. When I woke up, I couldn\u2019t believe I\u2019d slept that long.<\/p>\n
I felt great. So energized, and when 4:30 in the afternoon rolled around, the time when I\u2019m usually ready to sleep, I was, instead, very energetic.<\/p>\n
The downside to this is sleeping through the night. I\u2019ve been having a hard enough time doing it without a real nap, but now how will I ever sleep tonight? I do feel tired, at least, so that\u2019s something. Interesting, though, that 4:30 a.m. is the time I always wake up. There\u2019s something about those 4:30 times. Last night I woke up at 4:30 and was awake for about an hour and a half.<\/p>\n
Here\u2019s something funny \u2013 while drying my hair at the Fit Club this morning, these women next to me were having a long discussion about\u2026not being able to sleep. One said she woke up at three and couldn\u2019t sleep, so she finally started reading, and she finally went back to bed at five, but then she didn\u2019t want to get up at eight.<\/p>\n
Does ANYBODY sleep through the night? My friend Kate says she does. But if all these people are up in the middle of the night, maybe we should start doing something. For one thing, we could call each other. But on the other hand, I don\u2019t know how coherent I\u2019d be at 4:30 in the morning. But I FEEL darned wide awake. <\/p>\n
It seems we could be doing something more productive than talking on the phone, though. Something worthwhile. Maybe I should clean. Maybe I should volunteer for some all-night hotline. But the problem is that I wouldn\u2019t want to have to be awake all night, just from about 4:30 till 6 or so.<\/p>\n
So, a both good and bad day. Much, much better than an all-bad day. Not so bad to be living here in the now.<\/p>\n
Ok then,<\/p>\n
Very zenful grace<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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