whew. i thought i was tired last week before the show. but now, i\u2019m really REALLY tired. i\u2019m sitting at my sister\u2019s salon, waiting for my pin curls. i rushed to get here, but somehow every street i turned down had a red light, and it seemed to take forever. but she\u2019s not ready for me yet.<\/p>\n
what a strange week. at least i quit saying “it couldn\u2019t get worse.” but i\u2019m starting to worry about the bad things that have happened to those i love. so far, 2005 has been very, very rough, not just for me but for people i care about.<\/p>\n
here\u2019s one thing i worry about – people always say that “that which doesn\u2019t kill you makes you stronger.” and they also say you\u2019re not given more shitty stuff than you can handle.<\/p>\n
but the problem is that bad things keep happening, and so therefore i must be stronger and stronger and STRONGER all the time. but then doesn\u2019t that mean that i\u2019m going to have to deal with worse and worse things, because i\u2019m getting stronger and stronger? will i get more and more painful\/difficult things to deal with constantly? God, i don\u2019t even want to write those words, because i don\u2019t want to contemplate that.<\/p>\n
enough, please. ready for some good times. <\/p>\n
good times and warm weather – a grey, dreary day all day, then it started snowing, and now it\u2019s freezing rain. <\/p>\n
uncle.<\/p>\n
on a bright note, i didn\u2019t eat ALL the pizza at the cast party last night. but there was lots and lots of pizza. also, the guy who plays grandpa, ron, brought homemade chocolates, which is funny because in the play i\u2019m always making chocolates. so i had to eat several of them, because i didn\u2019t want to be rude.<\/p>\n
polite, i\u2019ve always been very polite. especially when it comes to forcing myself to eat chocolate.<\/p>\n
we talk about all kinds of food in the play, including blintzes, frankfurters, watermelon, and pickled pigs feet. at tonight\u2019s party they\u2019re going to serve many of the these items, except the pickled pigs feet. whose idea was that, pickling the pigs feet? did somebody have some pickling sauce left over from making pickles, and they said, “hey, let\u2019s pickle these leftover pigs feet we got lying around!” <\/p>\n
last night the woman who plays olga, beverly, brought two pans of blintzes. the other ron, who plays mr. kirby, ate one of them before they\u2019d been heated up in the oven. he plays a very stuffy upper-crust kind of guy in the show, but i told him that his character would never, ever eat cold blintzes.<\/p>\n
ok, so here\u2019s how i\u2019m going to try to combat the onslaught of bad stuff – i\u2019m going to try to think more positive thoughts. i think we should all try that. whenever i start burrowing down in the feelings of badness, i\u2019ve been trying to shift that away to thinking about the good. because life is about how you react to the things that happen to you, right? AND, maybe the huge outpouring of positive energy from me will HELP THINGS TO BE BETTER.<\/p>\n
so that\u2019s what i\u2019m doing. right now, even though i\u2019m ridiculously tired, i\u2019m going to sit here and think about good. good good good.<\/p>\n
just one quick good thought before i sign off – amy has lots of mini chocolates all over her salon, and there are not one but TWO bowls of them sitting right here next to me. so, clearly, life is good.<\/p>\n
positive thoughts.<\/p>\n
ok ok ok,<\/p>\n
happy grace<\/p>\n
p.s. i only meditated one day in a row this week, but i promise i\u2019ll do better next week, because i KNOW that meditating will change my world. if i ever manage to do it more than one day in a row.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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