last night at play practice, a friend said to me, “tomorrow will be better, and then the next day after that will be even better…”<\/p>\n
but today is tomorrow, it\u2019s actually about to be yesterday, and i don\u2019t see better on the horizon anytime soon. if she wasn\u2019t my good friend and trying desperately to cheer me up, i\u2019d have slapped her. if i ever slapped anybody, which i haven\u2019t. too bad i\u2019m not a getting angry kind of person, it seems anger would be easier to live with. <\/p>\n
actually, one time i did hit a boyfriend. we were in washington d.c., driving near the capitol, he was driving, we\u2019d spent the afternoon looking for a place to live. he\u2019d moved out there before me and looked around, and i was out to visit before actually moving, and he told me he didn\u2019t think he wanted me to move in with him, after all (we\u2019d been living together in springfield for a while before this). i was so outraged and surprised that i hit him, which of course was not such a good idea, especially in traffic. <\/p>\n
instead of hitting him, i should have stayed in springfield.<\/p>\n
?<\/p>\n
hard to say, and i really try to not spend undue time regretting every single thing i\u2019ve ever done in my life. we ended up living together again, and then breaking up again, and getting back together and breaking up…shouldn\u2019t this have been a very, very good learning experience for me? at any one of those times when he broke up with me, why didn\u2019t i say, enough is enough? Uncle? I get the message – YOU DON\u2019T LOVE ME.<\/p>\n
but no, i can\u2019t regret things. but WHY don\u2019t i learn? if a man breaks up with you, he\u2019s saying he doesn\u2019t want to be with you. if he breaks up with you more than once, he doesn\u2019t want to be with you AND you\u2019re a fool because you somehow thought that in getting back together you could make things magically work out.<\/p>\n
things don\u2019t work out. this is the lesson here, and i\u2019m a very very poor student. <\/p>\n
boy, i\u2019m tired.<\/p>\n
grace<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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