it\u2019s the st. ANDREWS fife and drum corps, fyi. maybe it\u2019s pipe and drum corps. st. ANDREWS, though.<\/p>\n
i started my day by waking up at eight and going to the gym and running on the treadmill YET AGAIN.<\/p>\n
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? WHY CAN\u2019T I JUST RELAX AND SLEEP LATE AND LOLL AROUND FOR A WHILE?<\/p>\n
i\u2019m having a big problem with the lolling around lately. not achievable.<\/p>\n
i proceeded to do bunches of stuff, resulting in YET MORE SURLINESS.<\/p>\n
will it never end, this foul mood?<\/p>\n
perhaps not.<\/p>\n
but the funny thing is, of course, that if i was to run into you right now, or if we were to talk on the phone this very minute, i\u2019d be SO FRIENDLY and you wouldn\u2019t even know about the surliness.<\/p>\n
isn\u2019t that how most of us humans live our lives, not being on the inside what we appear to be on the outside, to some degree? that\u2019s why children and animals are so good. you know exactly what\u2019s going on with them.<\/p>\n
but really, you like me much better when i feign cheer.<\/p>\n
CHRISTMAS cheer, for one thing.<\/p>\n
but it wasn\u2019t an all-bad day. i went to my friend ann\u2019s house, the one who has the fabulous cabin concerts, cause i was going to do the show for her and joe, because she said she won\u2019t be able to see me new year\u2019s eve because she\u2019s also performing.<\/p>\n
on thursday i was told by somebody who works for ann that she\u2019d invited a bunch of people, which was slightly unsettling because i felt i wasn\u2019t ready for that, a bunch of people who i didn\u2019t know.<\/p>\n
but i drove out to her house (still chock full of surliness not to mention my hatred of the cold and the snow), and put on my outfit for the show (which looks pretty darn fabulous, she said modestly), and the people kept showing up, and finally i started. first i explained that there were a couple of technical issues, but that it\u2019d probably work ok.<\/p>\n
and then i started, and i kept thinking “you just have to keep going here, you\u2019re already doing it, no way to stop and start over.” and i kept going, and they KEPT LAUGHING! this was so great. i mean, there was some stuff that i know i used to think was funny, but i can\u2019t see the humor in it anymore, but they LAUGHED. a lot. very surprising and great.<\/p>\n
it was also great because it felt like a real show. there were a couple of video glitches, but nothing dramatic. but everything went so smoothly, and it could not have been better.<\/p>\n
who could ask for more? i\u2019m so lucky to have ann for a friend, and that she did this, and i\u2019m so pleased way beyond my expectations. the thing is, since this is a special new year\u2019s eve show, and i\u2019m only performing it the one time, well, that\u2019s not a lot of chance to perform. but this felt like a real thing, and then next week i\u2019m going to do it once or twice for some other friends who won\u2019t be able to be there on new year\u2019s eve, and i\u2019m glad i get to do it a few times.<\/p>\n
the videos are pretty funny. i\u2019d like to show them to you, but of course i can\u2019t do that because i don\u2019t know how to put them up on the site, plus it would RUIN THE SURPRISE, if you come to the show.<\/p>\n
i can\u2019t think of ANY REASON AT ALL, by the way, why you wouldn\u2019t come to the show. so please do. get tix in advance for a measly 10 bucks, because they\u2019re 15 the night of the show.<\/p>\n
at the end, ann said that she\u2019s going to see the first 30 minutes of my show. she performs at 9, at the presidential library, and it seems she\u2019s going to be cutting it a little close, but she says she\u2019s going to see me, and i know she can and will do whatever she sets her mind to.<\/p>\n
i need to have an attitude like THAT. lose the surliness already, please.<\/p>\n
tonight randy coerced me into playing some boggle. i agreed, even though dead tired, because he\u2019d been so sweet to run the video for the show, even though there were some tricky things to it. <\/p>\n
and he KICKED MY ASS. i don\u2019t think he\u2019s ever beaten me that much. i can\u2019t understand how this happened. he NEVER beat me, EVER. but he just writes down the words like crazy, and then he beats me, every time. i must fight back.<\/p>\n
i thought of one great thing about xmas, in my attempt to feel a little less scrooge-grinchlike. next weekend i can just DO NOTHING.<\/p>\n
i\u2019m looking forward to that.<\/p>\n
ok then, goodnight,<\/p>\n
december grace.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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