i haven\u2019t written on here in the middle of the night for a long time. that\u2019s not to say i haven\u2019t been awake in the middle (i guess it\u2019s closer now to the end) of the night in a while, but i\u2019ve been lying here so long and my brain, instead of settling down, is way way too busy.<\/p>\n
lots of things to think about. thinking about way too many things at this early hour. there are some things i should not think about AT ALL, because these are things i can\u2019t change, i can\u2019t do anything about, things that will send my mood in an unpleasant spiral downward. ok, so STOP THINKING ABOUT THEM. it would be very helpful, and i wish somebody would invent it already, to have some kind of switch one could operate in one\u2019s brain, whereby the thoughts you wanted to get rid of could be GOTTEN RID OF.<\/p>\n
the other day christine mentioned that movie “the eternal sunshine of the spotless mind,” and i\u2019m pretty curious about renting it. it has kate winslet in it, and…jim carey? maybe not, maybe i\u2019m just making that up. but one or both of them has their memory altered. but then christine said that at the end of the movie, they, or just one of them, whoever has had their memory altered, they just want it back again. and i bet they don\u2019t get it. if that\u2019s what happens, well they need to just GET OVER IT. a memory isn\u2019t something you really NEED, now is it? it can really clutter up your brain. in harry potter, of course, they pull out strands of memory and put them in a pensive. except i don\u2019t think it\u2019s spelled like that, it\u2019s not pronounced like “pensive,” anyway. pensEEve is how it\u2019s pronounced. it would be nice to pull out offending bits of memory and store them someplace…but really, why would you want to store them, wouldn\u2019t it be better to erase them? wouldn\u2019t you just put them back in if you were feeling depressed, and you wanted to make yourself more miserable? that wouldn\u2019t be any good. maybe you could take them out of your brain, and you\u2019d THINK you were storing them somewhere, but really they got eliminated. unnecessary clutter.<\/p>\n
my cat winston has returned. he went someplace else for most of the night, and he appears to be very happy to be here because he\u2019s purring loudly, but he chose to sleep on the very edge of the bed, on the other side, with his back towards me. but he continues to purr, and if i reeeaaach over and pet him, he purrs even more.<\/p>\n
i still have a bunch of things to do today. lots of massages, i\u2019ll need lots of energy, it won\u2019t be a good thing if i\u2019m really sleepy because i\u2019m not sleeping right now. i should have done something that would quiet my brain, instead of typing, because it seems that the more i type, the faster i go. i need a good book to read, for one thing. but if it was really good, i\u2019d have gotten engrossed in it, and then i wouldn\u2019t have slept, also. maybe i need a boring book. hmm, i\u2019m sure i have some of those around here.<\/p>\n
friday friday friday, it would be really nice if it was going to be a snow day.<\/p>\n
ok then,<\/p>\n
ever-hopeful december grace.<\/p>\n
although the ever-hopefullness never gets me ANYWHERE.<\/p>\n
that\u2019s all i\u2019m saying.<\/p>\n
i\u2019m kind of hungry right now, i suddenly realized. maybe i should have a snack. <\/p>\n
man it\u2019s cold.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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