no tears today. pretty much. <\/p>\n
the week has been fairly crazy.<\/p>\n
my computer is very very bad again, and now it\u2019s being fixed. it\u2019s very strange to go home and have no computer. how am i supposed to write in the middle of the night? last night i wrote in my journal, but the problem with that is that frequently i go back and read what i\u2019ve written and i CAN\u2019T READ MY OWN WRITING. i do my best to be legible, but it just doesn\u2019t work out.<\/p>\n
so, classes…whew. i was pretty upset having NO COMPUTER, because i on tuesday afternoon I found out that the class i was going to have on tuesday night was going to be online most of the time, and i didn\u2019t know how to do the school online technology and i didn\u2019t know how to log in and i was fairly hysterical most of the day. i finally came to the university (where i am now, and where they have approximately one million computers sitting around, but not that many people actually using them) and logged on and got the syllabus for the class. <\/p>\n
i dropped it. well, i haven\u2019t dropped it yet, but i\u2019m about to. i sort of felt like a failure doing this, because it means i\u2019ll only have two classes (eight hours) of class this semester instead of three, and i wanted to be FULLY FULL TIME. but realistically, there was no way i could have read all the required reading for that class plus my other two classes, and also have my two jobs and have time to live and sleep (when sleep actually occurs, which it hasn\u2019t been so much this whole week and i\u2019m getting sick of it).<\/p>\n
so after i made the decision to drop the one class, i felt a little less anxious. tonight i had playwriting class, and i want to START WRITING A PLAY. first i have to read a book about it, and i have to get my computer back and then i\u2019m going to start right in. <\/p>\n
the professor did mention that maybe we could have our plays put on in our community – community theater – and it could be off or ON broadway. so i\u2019m glad he said that, because then it\u2019s not just me with the insane idea of wanting to be a successful author of some kind.<\/p>\n
did i ever tell you about when my sort-of agent in LA was really excited about a screenplay i\u2019d written, and told me he was going to sell it for a million dollars? i didn\u2019t sleep a lot then, either. since that didn\u2019t happen, at least i\u2019m more realistic about things like that.<\/p>\n
anyway, the girl next to me in class tonight was drawing a picture in her notebook. it was some kind of dragon, i think, like i\u2019ve seen kids draw before. was she actually only twelve? perhaps.<\/p>\n
i have many state fair photos from last year which i want to show you, but NO COMPUTER RIGHT NOW.<\/p>\n
my friend erica is also have a rocky first week of school. unpleasant things. <\/p>\n
fortunately, tomorrow is friday, although i don\u2019t know how that happened. theoretically i\u2019m going camping this weekend, which should theoretically be relaxing and fun. (never getting hopes up about anything anymore ever again, i promise). last night i finished my first homework, which included reading lysistrata<\/i>, although i should re-read it before class to try to get a deeper grasp. i didn\u2019t care for it so much; the greek chorus seemed just annoying, and i had a hard time trying to visualize what was going on.<\/p>\n
for my other play calss, i\u2019m going to read Six Characters in Search of an Author.<\/i> I\u2019m going to be SO immersed in plays! exciting. even though at the same time i think, am i actually pursuing something SERIOUS and SCHOLARLY here, is this the right thing to do? all i know is it\u2019s what i want to do, which should count for something, although i must think about the big picture – about the prospect of NOT being a successful playwright, and therefore instead teaching, so i need to think about how to actually take the right things so i can then teach.<\/p>\n
all will become clear, i\u2019m sure. and in the meantime, right now, i\u2019m liking school so far.<\/p>\n
no more tears.<\/p>\n
if you know erica, ask her about the photos of cleaning products on the door. i feel it would betray her confidence to share the story with you here, but it\u2019s quite fascinating, and i\u2019m sure she\u2019d be glad to tell you.<\/p>\n
i must go home and read some more.<\/p>\n
ok then,<\/p>\n
grace in school.<\/p>\n
AT THIS VERY MOMENT.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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