if i just wait forever for my computer to do something, it does it. maybe it\u2019s teaching me patience. jim suggested that i start using a pen and paper instead of the computer. good idea, except for the putting it on the internet part.<\/p>\n
ok, so i have to sleep in a minute,and i haven\u2019t gotten to read one word of harry potter yet. i\u2019ve been reading for the past hour, as fast as i can, but then i felt i had to stop and write for a minute.<\/p>\n
i\u2019m reading kurt vonnegot\u2019s “galapagos,” a book i got somewhere some time ago, and it\u2019s been sitting around forever and i don\u2019t even have or take the time to read books much these days anyway, but i started this one a while ago and right now i only have 50 more pages to go, so i have to keep reading to the end before i can start harry potter.<\/p>\n
it\u2019s not as good as other vonnegut books, but it\u2019s not bad.<\/p>\n
so here\u2019s the thing – he\u2019s talking about this thing that people in the book say about people who die – “\u2019Oh well – he wasn\u2019t going to write Beethoven\u2019s Ninth Symphony anyway.\u2019 This wry comment on how little most of us were likely to accomplish in life, no matter how long we lived…” <\/p>\n
then he explains where the comment came from, but i was seized up at that point, thinking about how little i\u2019ve accomplished, about how much i\u2019d hoped to accomplish already…but i haven\u2019t been going down a dark hole of depression by this for once, at least. instead, and i don\u2019t know why i\u2019m in an OK kind of place late on sunday night, but i\u2019ve been thinking, well, it\u2019s true that i haven\u2019t accomplished a lot of things i\u2019ve hoped to, and i probably won\u2019t ever do everything i want to do…so i need to keep remembering to try to enjoy what i\u2019m doing. and to do what i enjoy. <\/p>\n
i know that tomorrow morning i\u2019ll wake up and be surly Morning Grace, probably, but at least right now i\u2019m focusing on the good things i did today (and i did manage to squeeze some really nice things in today, in between swearing at the computer), and the prospect of joy tomorrow.<\/p>\n
so if you\u2019re reading this on monday morning, at your cubicle at work or wherever, and it\u2019s MONDAY MORNING, and you\u2019re feeling all snarly and unmotivated, well, just do something about it. one time i read this, and i know it sounds kind of retarded, but i do find it can work – just try smiling. just sit there and smile, and i bet you\u2019ll find it hard not to feel just a little bit better because you\u2019re smiling. i\u2019m sure it\u2019s some physiological smiling reflex hormone kind of thing, but even if i\u2019m very very surly, and i try smiling even though i DO NOT MEAN IT, i feel better, if even for a few minutes.<\/p>\n
and then, of course, you could always think about ways to improve your day. today i wrote a new flyer, all about trying new things, and it\u2019s the same idea here. <\/p>\n
finding some peace and happiness in the small things in life.<\/p>\n
this is the only one you have, after all. also a very important thing to keep in mind.<\/p>\n
perhaps i should try to find a job as a motivational speaker.<\/p>\n
and also maybe i could figure out how to tie this in with camping, something i\u2019d also like to get paid to do.<\/p>\n
surely, surely, there\u2019s a way…<\/p>\n
50 more pages.<\/p>\n
i have HARRY POTTER to look forward to tomorrow, which should definitely start the week off right.<\/p>\n
ok then, goodnight, get up right now and do something good for yourself. also, and i hate to sound all pollyanish, but it also feels good to do something nice for somebody else.<\/p>\n
all right already,<\/p>\n
grace.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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