i had approximately 17 minutes of rehearsal tonight. actually, a few more minutes, because after we all sang the “can of beans” song, we sat around while the woman who plays elizabeth sang a song with the guys. her part consists of singing “today i\u2019m getting married,” or something like that, about three times.<\/p>\n
whew, it was exhausting. we have to go back again next week. i\u2019ll keep you posted.<\/p>\n
have you ever seen that show “medium?” patricia arquette doesn\u2019t hardly sleep at all in it. she has lots of disturbing dreams, which always seem to be true. so that\u2019s something to be thankful for, despite the not sleeping, at least i don\u2019t have disturbing dreams. have i told you about my dreams? horribly, horribly dull. for a while i dreamed that i was ironing. yep, ironing. <\/p>\n
anyway, my weekend…no races. i was going to see that movie “the interpreter,” but somehow i didn\u2019t get around to it. how can a person with this much free time manage to not accomplish something as simple as getting to a movie? maybe this weekend. <\/p>\n
i made lots of asian food on saturday night. sushi, pot stickers, pad thai. i did it all because i wanted some sushi, but i knew the sushi from cub foods wouldn\u2019t be satisfying. and plus, i woke up on saturday and decided it would be nice to cook for my family, since i\u2019ve been very negligent in that regard for quite some time. <\/p>\n
sunday, i went to an all-day workshop. let me say that i am NOT A WORKSHOP PERSON. i\u2019m not a meeting person, and i don\u2019t do workshops, i avoid any kind of stuff like this LIKE THE PLAGUE. and i\u2019ve been plague-free all my life. but this was an empowering workshop. the title was: EMPOWERING THE SPIRIT: A WORKSHOP TO SHIFT YOUR ENERGY FIELD AND YOUR LIFE.<\/p>\n
and let me just say that it did. I mean, it was great. for one thing, it wasn\u2019t boring. for me not to get bored while sitting down in a chair for seven hours is nothing short of miraculous. we did a bunch of guided meditations, and we wrote stuff down in our journals, and we did all kinds of things that you might possibly scoff at (i can hear christine scoffing right now), the kind of stuff that i was quite skeptical about before doing it. the leader of the workshop was judith corvin-blackburn, who is an amazing person, a psychotherapist, an author and teacher. i loved listening to her talk.<\/p>\n
it was basically about actualizing your potential. listening to your soul. acquiring more personal and spiritual power.<\/p>\n
by the end of the day, i was fully activated, feeling powerful. like i could conquer the world.<\/p>\n
and i did, today. well, i didn\u2019t completely conquer it, but i did get a lot of stuff done. and, most importantly, i feel good about things. i\u2019m not sure how long this will last, but i\u2019m going to try to keep the stuff i learned close to my heart. <\/p>\n
Mom wanted to know what, exactly, we did in the workshop, and i told her about the meditating, and about how Judith talked a lot, but there\u2019s really no way to explain it well. it\u2019s just something you have to experience. There were 16 of us in the workshop, and when it was over, we had to go around and say how we felt. a surprising number of people said they felt drained. I wasn\u2019t drained, not at all. i think one thing the experience taught me is that even though i have all this angst and stuff buzzing around in my head all the time, i\u2019m actually in pretty good shape, emotion-wise. realizing this is a huge breakthrough, and makes me feel really good.<\/p>\n
ok, and i\u2019m going to share with you a big thing that we did – in one of the meditations, we had to imagine somebody standing in front of us. judith said this was our Spiritual Warrior, the spiritual being who would help us to be strong, will protect us and show us the way.<\/p>\n
a clear image immediately came into my head. afterwards, judith asked us to share with the group who we saw. other people had some pretty profound images. i decided not to share.<\/p>\n
my warrior is a cartoon character. i can see him in my mind right now (and i\u2019m glad he\u2019s going to be with me from now on); he\u2019s a lot like the Disney character Hercules. A class tall cartoon disney strongman, absurdly broad shoulders, dark hair, wearing a tunic. with a silly little half-grin. i\u2019m going to have to watch the movie again, to see if hercules is exactly who i was thinking of. When we were doing the meditation, he was quite wise and good, but at the same time, full of disney-like goofiness, pirouetting around in his tunic.<\/p>\n
You can see why i didn\u2019t want to bring him up. everybody else\u2019s warrior seemed a lot more, um, profound and deep and meaningful. but the more i\u2019ve been thinking about my man, i realize that of course he wouldn\u2019t be all serious. he\u2019s thoughtful and is going to help me out a lot, i know, but he he\u2019s funny, he makes me laugh. because that\u2019s who i am, it\u2019s an intrinsic part of me. finding the humor in things is what keeps me from being REALLY depressed, and it\u2019s something that i can\u2019t help doing. it\u2019s just how my mind works.<\/p>\n
maybe i should have brought him up during the workshop, because even though he\u2019s not full of the “meaning” that means stuff to other people, he has meaning to me. lots of meaning.<\/p>\n
anyway, today i did plenty of physical things. i tried the tri ahead of time. i\u2019m going to be in a triathlon on sunday, a mini, tiny triathlon, but a triathlon just the same. it\u2019s called “try the tri,” starting with a mere 150 yards of swimming, in the fit club pool. this will consist of swimming back and forth and back and forth and back and forth down the length of the pool. <\/p>\n
did i ever mention that i flunked swimming lessons when i first took them at the YWCA? we had to swim the WIDTH of the pool, but i couldn\u2019t master that.<\/p>\n
after swimming, we\u2019re going to bike 5 miles, then run 1.3 miles. <\/p>\n
it seems like nothing, really, but i was nervous about the swimming, so i started swimming last week, and i like it a lot. so today i loaded my bike into the back of the minivan and drove to the fitclub. i swam for 15 minutes, then i put on some shorts over my swimming suit and got my bike out of the van and rode for 22 minutes, then i put on my baseball cap and ran for 26 minutes. all these times are longer than the time i need to go on sunday, so now i\u2019m filled with confidence about the day. the only difference will be that it\u2019s going to start early in the morning.<\/p>\n
but with hercules by my side, how could things go wrong?<\/p>\n
and not only that, but i\u2019m pretty tired now becaus of all the activity, so that means my sleep tonight will be completely through the night.<\/p>\n
one final thing – i was running down the street in my baggy shorts, my big t-shirt and my baseball cap, and there were some guys working on a house and one of them whistled at me. i wanted to yell, ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR MIND THERE? YOU THINK THIS OUTFIT DESERVES A WOLF WHISTLE? WHAT ARE YOU, BLIND OR SOMETHING? but i didn\u2019t want to stop.<\/p>\n
that is all for now.<\/p>\n
ok then,<\/p>\n
empowered grace, you\u2019d better watch out.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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