saturday evening, i was so excited about my PBS sitcoms – and i turned on the TV and PBS WASN’T WORKING. Kevin called our cable company, and it wasn’t them, it was actually PBS. very disappointing. instead we watched “minority report,” an intense movie starring tom cruise that i think is pretty good.

christine wrote to me that she thought camping sounded MISERABLE (she didn’t actually capitalize the word, but that was the thone i got from her e-mail). the thing about camping is, it can be so great. the place where we went, Site M, is a short, hour-long drive from here, and the primitive campsite is so serene and lovely and peaceful and crammed with nature.

except for the heat and the incredibly loud and rude fellow campers, it was great.

maybe it’ll cool off again, say, by…october?

worse, i’m suddenly sick. again. i was just sick a month ago and i never get sick and once again it feels like the flu, with chills and awful achyness and incredibly fatigue. i’m about to back to sleep, as a matter of fact.

because of my deeply-rooted worrying genes, i’m pretty sure that it’s something very very bad. because why would i get sick two months in a row? it could be lyme disease, although i pulled ticks off my socks but never found any anywhere else, plus it takes at least three days for any symptoms to show up. but maybe i got lyme disease before, sometime before i was sick the last time, and now it’s resurfacing.

the other possibility is ovarian cancer. how much do you know about ovarian cancer? it’s an incredibly deadly form of cancer, because there aren’t any symptoms, so it’s not found until it’s at a very advanced stage, and by then it has spread and most people die from it.

but i just read an article a few days ago, stating that now they’re starting to think that there are possibly early signs.

here’s part of one article:

Cancer Experts Identify Symptoms For Early Diagnosis Of Ovarian Cancer

Main Category: Women’s Health / OBGYN News

Article Date: 18 Jun 2007 – 6:00 PDT

The American Cancer Society, Gynecologic Cancer Foundation and the Society of Gynecologic Oncologists on June 25 are expected to formally announce recommendations for identifying symptoms that could signal early stages of ovarian cancer, the New York Times reports. Experts from the groups are calling on women who experience the symptoms — which include bloating, pelvic or abdominal pain, difficulty eating or feeling full quickly, and a frequent or urgent need to urinate — every day for two to three weeks to see a gynecologist.

Some physicians said the recommendations will make women and doctors more aware of early symptoms of ovarian cancer and will lead to earlier diagnosis. “The majority of the time this won’t be ovarian cancer, but it’s just something that should be considered,” Barbara Goff, director of gynecologic oncology at the University of Washington and an author of several studies that helped identify the symptoms, said. She added that new and persistent problems were the most important for women to monitor.

According to the Times, if ovarian cancer is diagnosed and surgically removed before it spreads outside the ovary, 93% of patients are alive after five years. However, only 19% of cases are diagnosed early, and 45% of all women with ovarian cancer survive at least five years, compared with 89% of women diagnosed with breast cancer. About 22,430 new cases of ovarian cases and 15,280 deaths are expected in the U.S. this year, the Times reports.

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bad, huh? but i guess i don’t have most of the symptoms. and they don’t mention a horrible achy feeling and having chills and a temperature.

so maybe i’ll live.

goodnight.

grace