Sep. 07, 2007

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i’m now counting down in earnest... [ General ] -  grace - grace@graceuncensored.com @ 11:08 pm

as the time seems to be shrinking all around me. we’re leaving in three days. i feel like i have many things to do before then.

i had an unexpectedly long and busy day working and got home very tired and very hungry because i didn’t eat lunch which is absolutely not like me in any way. we ate dinner and i calmed down a little from being frantic from hunger, and kevin gave me an anniversary present - it’s an exquisite diamond palm tree necklace. very very fancy. he said he wanted to give it to me now instead of waiting till we’re on our trip and the risk of it getting lost in the luggage.

what did i get him? NOTHING. i though the trip was going to be our gifts to each other.

he’s sleeping right now, so let’s see, what’s open at this time of night? walgreens...taco bell...wal mart. the anniversary gift possibilities are slightly limited. a soft taco and some peanuts and some random cheap plastic walmart crap probably wouldn’t cut it.

i’ve been so obsessing about the trip that i hadn’t even thought about ANNIVERSARY GIFTS.

whew.

it’s a dazzling necklace.

ok, so one really bad thing, i mean besides all the stil-at-large terrorists connected with potentially blowing up the frankfort airport WHERE WE WILL BE on sept. 11th - i read that there are seven more guys and at least they know where they are and hopefully they’re keeping good tabs on them - the really bad IMMINENT thing is that kevin is getting SICK.

last night he didn’t feel so great and tonight he’s not feeling so great and he JUST CAN’T GET SICK. this isn’t even a possibility that i’d thought about.

that, and an anniversary gift. because clearly i’m a very bad person.

but anyway, what are we going to do? he is going to get better. the thing is, that when he gets sick, he has the potential of getting pretty darn sick for quite a while.

maybe he’ll feel better tomorrow.

here’s one problem with tomorrow - we’re supposed to get up relatively early and take our 25-mile bike ride. and then go to fencing for an hour or so. and then he wants to go to somebody’s house where they’re going to have a guitar jam session. and then we’re going to mom and dad’s house and i’m making pizza for everybody and then we’re going to the “rockballet.”

and oh yeah, I HAVEN’T STARTED PACKING YET.

plus i have to make two pizzas.

and i know this is crazy, but i MUST PICK BASIL from my garden. i picked basil last week, tons and tons and tons of it. i froze it in ice cube trays, five of them, with water added. i read that you can do this, and it will be very close to having actual fresh basil.

now i have five ice cube trays worth. that’s quite a lot of basil. but i want to pick more because there’s still a LOT MORE out there. i’m going to freeze this batch in olive oil, to compare.

i will have enough frozen basil to last me a year at least.

is this really the best us of my time, is my central question here.

just like, why am i sitting here writing when i should be resting up for the very busy day ahead of me tomorrow?

if kevin still isn’t feeling so good, we won’t take our bike ride in the morning. then i could pick the basil. it’s not like i’m going to keel over from exhaustion on the bike trip if i haven’t practiced going 25 miles two days in a row.

by the way, he did tell me he thought i should keep all three pairs of black pants. so i am.

you can never have too many pairs of black pants.

i’m feeling really kind of crazy right now because i feel like i’m NOT READY TO GO AT ALL. hmm, this is not going to be good for falling asleep. MUST CALM DOWN RIGHT NOW.

i guess if i can’t fall asleep, i could make some pizza sauce.

here’s a photo of the necklace, even though when i tried to copy it, a message said SORRY, OUR IMAGES ARE COPYRIGHTED. but then it seemed to copy with no problem. it’s by a designer named roberto coin, who i’d never heard of before. because i haven’t ever gotten fancy jewels. there’s a tiny ruby embedded in the back of the tree, because he does this with all his jewelry because it’s supposed to be good luck.



here’s what it says about the ruby on the website:

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THE STORY OF THE RUBY
An ancient Egyptian legend tells that a ruby touching a woman’s skin brings great happiness and good fortune. So it has become a trademark of Roberto Coin that each piece of jewelry has, set at a position closest to the skin of the wearer, a marquise ruby.

Throughout history the Burmese have inserted rubies under their skin so they would not be wounded in battle. It was believed that rubies had the power to ensure a peaceful life. On a spiritual level, rubies were believed to banish evil thoughts and reconcile disputes. Considered the “Lord of gems” in many countries rubies were reserved only for kings.

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hmm, great happiness, good fortune, a peaceful life...funny thing is, i felt like all that already happened almost a year ago when we got married.

not to be disgustingly mushy or anything.

and now if it will also banish my evil thoughts, maybe i’ll sleep all night tonight instead of obsessing I’M SURE I’M FORGETTING MANY IMPORTANT THINGS AND I DON’T HAVE ENOUGH TIME TO GET EVERYTHING DONE AND WHAT IF KEVIN GETS MORE SICK INSTEAD OF LESS AND I’M SURE ALL THE STUFF I HAVE PILED ON THE DRESSER WON’T FIT INTO THE SUITCASE AND WHY DO THEY LIMIT ME TO JUST ONE SUITCASE AND I’M SURE I’M NOT GOING TO GET ENOUGH SLEEP TONIGHT TO HAVE ENERGY TO PICK ALL THAT BASIL TOMORROW.

not just evil thoughts, but crazy ones, too. because i guess my thoughts have a tendency to wander towards the crazy/irrational rather then evil.

goodnight then.

crazy but not evil grace

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